NEW PRESCRIPTION DRUG DANGER....

A new prescription drug danger could be on the way. (Medical marijuana use has already escaped its safety zone among people who really do benefit from it and so its availability has been threatened by abuse and misuse.)

It is indeed a positive approach to terminal illness and the trauma it can cause to try new medications. However, drugs that were considered "street drugs" are being tried and proven to help ease the trauma of terminally ill patients. Such administration of the drugs are done in a medical facility such as a doctors or therapists office. Patients will not be sent home with these medications. And they may possibly save lives if the stress and fear of "terminal illness" is relieved.

Terminal DOES NOT necessarily mean a patient will die, it only refers to as no longer being able to find treatment for a health problem or illness. When my late husband was put on hospice care, I did not believe it was the end, just a rest or break from his exhausting struggle with cancer and to be able to keep at home like we all wanted. I had met people turned over to hospice care only to survive after all and so I had full faith in his recovery. Anyway...

These drugs, three known drugs, actually occur organically from plants or grow naturally to some extent and need little moderation to be developed into a medication. Their use as "street drugs" usually involves poor grade products that are cranked out with other chemicals to make them more potent or to stretch limited supplies. Fortunately they are hardly popular as street drugs.

If these drugs escape into the home, then use common sense as with any medication such as keeping out of reach of children, not sharing prescriptions, making sure correct dose is given. Of course these prescriptions will not have the same street drug name on their labels but the proper pharmaceutical name.

MOST IMPORTANT - if you are a caregiver to someone terminally ill, disabled or in poor health PLEASE BE SURE YOU HAVE PLENTY OF HELP because stress can affect the quality of care or quality of life so important to a patient and their family. I still really believe that me being overwhelmed as a caregiver and not knowing how to manage all the help I had given contributed to a lesser quality of life for my husband and his quick death within six months of being diagnosed with cancer. My own disability had put such a strain on those who were helping him and possibly took away the proper care needed for his recovery.

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KUDOS! to all of my TRUE friends :)

For those who follow my FaceBook posts, you know that I have taken a stand against burdening my loved ones with my possible health problems. Most likely the abnormal lab result and the rashes on me that look like pinpoint bruises, itch and bleed are just some usual problems with approaching middle age and -ugh- menopause. (I had discovered a real condition called "perimenopause" that basically does indeed make menopause last for a ridiculous amount of years so I bucked up to a healthier lifestyle. Of couse I do have quite a high risk for cancer, stroke and heart failure. And with most likely having to cut my health insurance a few weeks, what's the use in going back and following up on an abnormal lab result. I would like to believe the swelling and lump under my right arm are just from when I got my shoulder hurt in an act of self defense when I was much younger.

Because of my legal blindness I cant drive and have a nearly impossible time with transportation. Hey, people got a lot more to do in life than carry me around. They have to work, they get sick, they have their own families and so forth. But so many people have tried, no matter how poorly their car was running, if they had to borrow a car or even get a ride themself to help me.

 I did buy a family car, mostly so I could have a place to sleep if I lost my house. But my son got in trouble for racing the car with the police and a few months later the car was sold, after he got the motor fixed into being halfway powered by water (STEAM-POWERED) and so getting as much as FORTY MILES PER GALLON on gas. So maybe the old 92 BMW did clock up to 120-140 mph. Well, at least I know which kind of car to buy now and who can be able to work on it. It also had it's own power supply for lights and computer and cell phone. It was money well spent... I still got the tag to show that I did own such a car. 92 bmw 325is 4 door, working sunroof, antitheft etc.

My mom was helping me get to counseling twice a week but she got an infection on some throat surgery she had a couple of months ago. My daughter is going to college and her boyfriend set definite limits on NO LONGER HELPING US. because of some men things that happened to him at our house, I DO NOT BLAME HIM. (I paid for the damages to his car, some of the medical bills and helped buy another car or two and a motor)

I have been, understandably accused of giving up on my son, but I haven't. I CANNOT DO ANY MORE because I have to work and still I'm still recovering from a lot of trauma. Three years after his death, I still hear my late husbands voice and imagine what good advice or at least reaction he'd have to what is going on. He was also a tremendous support in my work at the print shop and my venture into graphic design. (And I can still hear those two birds we had talk and whistle - sometimes. But I'm not a crazy person just hearing voices.) The physical pain of still missing him is very real.

If I do have some thing really wrong with me, I'm not giving up and just going to die. I am only following a path that will be the least burden to my loved ones so that we can all have the best quality of life. If it is cancer, I'm going to die anyway, everybody else that has had it did, except my mom and I have a bad feeling that its going to get her so I am ready to help with taking care of her.

SO I THANK EVERYONE WHO HAS BEEN THERE FOR ME THROUGHOUT IT ALL and will continue to be there for me.

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A Better Outlook on Life and a Brand New Attitude...

I hate to repeat myself but I had a usual check-up in January 24, 2011 (for anyone who has not read)

A referral for a mammogram was given to me.

Then abnormal results were found in my lab work and it was recommended I come back in 6 months

So six months ended in July - I got the appointment card and ignored it because my mom had to have minor surgery on her throat (she had cancer about 10 years ago) and my son was in "rehab"

I then got a letter from the hospital this month (August) - I have two lumps under my right arm and I am broke out in a rash all over that bleeds in spots and my skin has tore open in a few places on my wrists.

For years I have not felt good anyway and been under a lot of stress.

I have before stated that I would avoid cancer screenings much less get treatment-MY MIND HAS NOT CHANGED...

I will be having to drop my health insurance and will possibly lose my house.

I have been able to get the yard cleaned up - gecko lizards are hatching out of my compost box :) and I have a small garden - got some peas and beans out of it.

I am getting a little more work and will be able to collect disability shortly

I REFUSE TO BECOME A BURDEN ON MY LOVED ONES - they have exhausted all means helping me and my family anyway

I have found out where uninsured people can get medical care and I got a discount prescription card

and besides a new kind of that party drug "Ecstacy" or "X" may be approved for cancer treatment and that sounds dangerous, the new prescription drug abuse is on the way like with rx marijuana...

and maybe all that lumps and rash is just nothing anyway

I am at peace with myself and believe no one will hurt too bad over me because I have disappointed my family, failed with my kids and most of all disappointed in myself for not being able to support my family, financially or emotionally. And I have not been able to keep up the family home.

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YOU ARE NOT ALONE....

VERY TIRED OF ANSWERING FOR CONFUSION THAT ISNT MINE....

I KNOW MY OWN CONFUSIONS ...

WE ALL HAVE OUR CONFUSIONS...

SO LETS COME TOGETHER IN PEACE

there is no confusion to being at peace with one another no matter how bad things can get....

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SINGLE-?-

well, it is supposed that i have a "boyfriend" - not sure how he feels and he'll probably never be involved with my family - he aint close to his own family - he does not like kids-

he grew up on the parkway - dauphin island parkway - he likes to drink-

he's retired on "disability", played in a band, has a son, and he's "been through some women"

i do go to Mississippi-its away from home and I enjoy myself-sometimes we spend the night at his moms

we watch movies-he has a dog and it is cute but I HATE DOGS :) cant stand them

we cook, i help fold clothes, make the bed -as the saying goes "got to earn your keep"

he's much older than me and that makes a big difference, like set in his ways-

the fishing is good at the trailer - i made good friends there

been together since September of 2010

i care about him and he seems to "love" me but i just dont have a feeling of "relationship"

we do have real good times together like good friends

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Zombie disaster? possible...

-there was once a man in our neighborhood really nicknamed ZOMBIE because he had some kind of real bad mental problems or something and so he was not educated or skilled BUT he was really able to tell time well enough WITHOUT A WATCH, build bicycles that didnt fall apart and in general was a true friend who was really all there for anyone.

So my idea of zombies are not those gross horror movie creations that terrorize people but are real people; maybe autistic, mentally ill, on medication, starving, down and out and so forth.

Their greatest need for help puts them on a kind of autopilot that motivates them to get the help they need, whether it's food because they are going hungry, a clean safe place to sleep, a place to wash their clothes, help with their family, needing money.

But some may be potential trouble such as maybe someone trying to avoid the law or out to steal from you. And yes there are some that are alcoholic or using drugs -street or prescription. Most ?zombies? know how to act when entering your home; whether they are out to take advantage of you by posing as a friend or they outright rob your house while you're gone or assault you. And some are true friends whose problems have clouded their best judgement.

So along with the usual common sense preparedness- daily or emergency such as having your birth certificate and other forms of ID, plenty of food and drink, first aid supplies, tools for home repairs, exercise some trust or caution as you would with anyone who comes into your house.

Just play it cool  and be cooperative as if welcoming a guest in your home so  PLEASE NO WEAPONS AND JUST SAY NO....

and so whether you need to call the police or 911 or F*CK the POLICE or 911 is up to your best judgement -  :)

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EEK MOUSE!!! :) for real :)

Now FaceBook has had a steady theme from me about a unique rat in the house :) my frustrations with being a single mom and my finally admitting a lifetime of brain damage and mental illness :)

i was acting only out of faith-

-then something presents itself to me and then sets itself on display to prove that life aint all bad

IT WAS AN INCH LONG ALMOST BLACK LITTLE MOUSE with a real short tail

Thursday afternoon after my son had got jailed when on his way back from WalMart picking up food for the house - I left the car in impound to hope there better be food or something to prove he was indeed at WalMart. He is being charged with possession of dope and other stuff....marijuana 2-a single use or maybe scraps in the car...we are yet to find out who was really driving that car...

anyway Thursday afternoon May 12 about 3 or 4 in the afternoon, I was turning on the water hose to fill the dogs outside water buckets up. I saw a mess of rope and a deflated inner tube with canvas cover beside the sun porch. I picked it up to put it away in the garage when a silvery bug looking creature was flittering around in the leaves.

I slapped at it with the rope but it was still flittering around and then it got in my flip flop. I slung it off and the thing was still flittering around so i snatched at it thinking I was just seeing things and would catch nothing. But it felt furry and I cracked my hand open to see a tiny little mouse snuggled in my hand. It was cute. Worried that it was maybe too hurt or had bitten me, I put it in a small fish tank to watch it in case I got sick and needed to show the creature that I had contact with.

By that night it was happily eating; dog food, bread so I provided it with some newspaper, a toilet paper tube for a house. It was quite a lively little stinker so later I put a branch from the bush it was found under and a unique ceramic candle holder in the tank for it to explore.

I had decided to keep the mouse because when my kids were little they had caught one and thought it was so cute and they liked how soft it felt and wanted to keep it but it got away from them. I want to surprise my son with it, at least a picture and a story of it.

- that mouse was found around the same bush where a dog (Charity) my son was dog sitting for over the weekend while I was gone was found dead that Monday BY ME. The dogs owner had provided it with dog food, checked on it regularly, it was healthy: had its shots and was wormed. My son said it had gotten bad sick then had assumed the owner had took the dog back home. I had noticed the dog missing not too long after I got home. When I found it it looked like it was just asleep but my son saw me find it dead. How cruel can life be....

I have realized that being in a relationship with another man is really not good for me and my family and I just havent yet broke up with him.... but being gone off with a man over the weekend is not the thing to be doing....even if it is a clean relationship from which I have made some good friends

May God give me the strength to break it off with him. I'm not sure how much he really cares about or loves me anyway

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WHen I See Jesus, things get better... :)

I "Like" anything about Jesus on FaceBook and so I've been seeing a lot of Jesus on FaceBook.

So therefore in good faith that my FaceBook friends will pray with and for me, I have been blasting my horn about my hard times-everybody has problems, some worse than me so let's just pray with and for each other.

I AM NOT ASHAMED OF THE GOSPEL OF JESUS CHRIST:

-i am guilty of spending too much time on Facebook because I've been seeing so much of Jesus...

-and so if that interferes with the work I do for people then I have to face maybe losing a job or two, after all Jesus did say those who dont work well enough dont get paid

I WILL TRY NOT TO WORRY ABOUT BEING SO POOR AND HAVE FAITH THAT I WILL BE TAKEN CARE OF BEING AN AMBASSADOR FOR CHRIST....as we are all called to do.

<<<<----->>>>> and so on -

FRIDAY MAY 13 - i took the courage to admit to CHILD ABUSE and will now fail a drug screen

MY SON WAS JAILED BECAUSE I COULD NOT HELP HIM

and so i will do what it truthfully takes to save him

his life is ahead of him - mine is behind me

it all started when their dad lost his life to some kind of brain damaged mistake i made that cost him his life-

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Good Info on Home-Based Business

It is true one can make money from home with a service or product or they can use their existing job or career skills.

The computer and internet along with self discipline and skills make that possible.

But you do have to advertise and promote yourself, service, product or skills then have the self discipline to be able to manage the work you will have to do and then the money you make.

http://theweblist.webs.com - earn money surfing the internet, not much but at leasst to spend on advertising.

http://techdesigns.webs.com - online design, printing, promotional items

And there are the popular turn-key websites that can make you money.

And of course there is EBay, Google, ClickBank etc and you can make money with those too.

Then there are freelance employment sites such as www.odesk.com where you can do contract work.

Social media networking is very popular along with usual emailing, printed materials and phones.

HOWEVER THERE IS A CATCH-   :) its called "blackhat" ? marketing (such as spamming and ripping people off)  or "white hat marketing"(using more honest means to sell)  -both involve the abilities to promote or market your product or service through how you communicate with people and how you choose to use online and off-line resources to advertise.

There are the right and of course wrong ways to try to sell your product or service or use your skills.

And then there is that "gray area" of marketing where someone makes honest mistakes in marketing.

Now it is no secret that the best way to do business whether providing a service or selling something is being able to sell yourself; the ability to relate to people and so build a successful campaign based on the needs of the people and using information about them (in a positive manner) to communicate.

There are a plethera of ways to promote, sell, market, use skills etc such as emailing, phone use, social media sites, messengers, TV, radio and of course any business involve times and money.

http://www.financialdesign.info - http://www.economicfreedomcorp.com/mmm30007

http://www.freefromyourpaycheck.com/blog0208/ - news, tips and tools about making money online

BUT HERE ARE SOME THINGS NOT TO DO AND SOME WAYS NOT TO DO BUSINESS

• Use good manners on the phone - no bullying, trickery, name calling etc


• Don't spam with emailing - email about things most people are interested in


• Follow up with leads you do get - but don't obviously bother them


• Provide a quality service or product. - dont rip anyone off :)

Last but not least do not do such things as deliberately making a person feel threatened or harassed, or should that happen by accident be sure to correct it. Rather positively build a persons trust and if they are not interested then leave them alone.

DO NOT RESORT TO IMPROPER CELL PHONE USE, SUSPICIOUS EMAILS, JOKES, SCRIPTS, COMPUTER HACKING etc to try to trick or pressure a person....

(on a personal note - NEVER USE THE INTERNET, EMAIL, PHONE OR DIRECT MAIL TO MAKE ANYONE FEEL THREATENED LIKE YOU MIGHT BE RIGHT OUTSIDE THEIR DOOR or something but such means could have been an honest mistake by the person who did that or the person who felt insecure and threatened to begin with.... .:) - dont be a stranger without a face.

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June 2010 to May 2011

as I wrote before credit card information was taken from me and my personal information used to create True Success Solutions - http://www.truesuccesssolutions.com/sk2856

my personal email address and phone number was used so i got an invoice-the first invoice had incorrect information but it was corrected and I got another one-the 500 dollars i lost was non-refundable according to the invoice-same as with a www.dwscott.com/sherrykinman-i was able to get a refund and the site no longer exists - may have changed to http://www.economicfreedomcorp.com/

i am still haunted by at least a couple of terrorizing calls from True Success Solution -  i received-the most distinct one was from an ED who couldnt hardly pronounce the link for True Success Solutions - i couldnt write it down fast enough much less type it - he was commanding me to do such things as "this is very important" - "get out a clean sheet of paper" as I was screaming "NO! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO ORDER ME AROUND OVER THE PHONE LIKE THIS!" I was panicking and pacing the house as my kids seemed to ignore me.....

since then and even now I still have a genuine fear of going to sleep, i do not feel safe in my house but i am still afraid to leave my house and i panic if i doi have at least learned self defense.....(online)   ---  and  - i classify that as TERRORISM-thank you

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- another day another dollar....

im not ashamed that at one time i was some hotshot designer - yeah right?

somehow i forgot the better half of what all i had learned

i could explain but

(i did have indesribable help and support)

sometime shit still goes wrong-

but gotta still try to - gotta pay the bills able or not

THE ONLY RELIEF FROM DEBT AND TAXES IS DEATH-

let freedom  ring.......

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-Soul Survivor

I began this blog as therapy and learning how to do web design

Two and a half years later, I am still just as devastated by the grief and failure of a tragicallly single parent and so have decided to take some positive direction in life.

My motivation was reinforced by the death of a dear sister-in-law but before that some disturbing events played out....

In January of 2011, a routine doctor visit showed some abnormal results and I was recommended to have a cancer screening in July-but I may be forced to cut my health insurance in June when my widows benefits start getting cut-

I have not been able to really feel good for years now-I don't want to be a burden to my family and friends whose support I feel like I've exhausted some time ago-

I don't like starting drama and hope that there are really no health issues and so will share my journey through whatever may happen

Cancer-Insight/Healing for Victims and Survivors is a site I found that is not only helpful for cancer patients but also great information for everybody with cancer concerns and I can certainly relate to a lot of the information......my goal is to only to inspire others with my "drama" and victories

In the meantime, I have been guilty of bitterness, hate and such negative feelings and actions....

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